Suicide Zen Forgiveness

The Anniversary of the first botched surgery that led me down a deep well of agony. Not only from the physical destruction and damage, more devastating was the emotional pain of the people i loved, my family, on this torturous rollercoaster of will she or wont she survive...  No one could know that this, part one, was simply the foist in a long line of mistakes, that ultimately took the next two decades of our lives and in the end still affects my day to day living...  Andrea 'gift' has come into to play so many times... Now for the first time I lay it out, starting with this first pain-full anniversary account of Sep 13th 1983 the lead in and the beginning of the aftermath...  

Lois Hollis, RN, BSN. REV. shifts our opinion on one of the most forbidden subjects, shame and guilt. Her passion is to show the way to self-love by releasing shame guilt (not shame and guilt.) Shame and guilt reinforce each other to produce negative emotions such as anger, depression, anxiety, addictions, traumas, etc. They infiltrate our emotions with stealth precision that causes our struggles from low confidence to suicide. Depression, anxiety, 30 years of migraine headaches, and pain were Lois’ way of life until she learned about the dangers of shameguilt. She realized that shame guilt was within her anger, depression, migraines, rage, fears, and physical pain. The solution was to confront shameguilt.   She shares her 15 years’ experience as a ShameGuilt Educator, Counselor, Filmmaker, author to give us a way to health, wellness, and spiritual maturity. Lois began as a Nurse’ Aide at 12 and continues today at 78 to be a health advocate. Lois experienced spiritual encounters after severe childhood abuse.   Lois is a trailblazer. She developed one of the first Kidney Hemodialysis centers in the United States. Today, Lois brings shame and guilt together as a new field to study. She has authored three books and the 'I'm good' films. Her newest book, contains her Spirit to cancel the shame guilt hypnosis.   From Lois I’m a Trailblazer As a student and teacher, I am educating others on the dangerous impact of shame and guilt upon each of us. My I’m Good” Docu-series further illustrates how changing the shame/guilt system solves our mental health crisis. In 1964 as a registered nurse, I joined the University of Maryland open-heart surgical and nursing team. I modified my traditional nursing skills to meet the challenges of the new field of open-heart surgery. In 1966 I was a Nurse Entrepreneur. I helped establish one of the first kidney hemodialysis units in the United States at Thomas Jefferson University Hospital. I assisted with research, teaching, and consulting to support other dialysis centers. Before the availability of the hepatitis vaccine, I contained a hepatitis epidemic at Thomas Jefferson Dialysis Unit and developed protocols for hepatitis management in hemodialysis to other units. I co-founded the AANNT American Association of Nephrology Nurses and Technicians in 1971 to standardize procedures for hemodialysis nursing. With sadness and the resistance of colleagues, I left traditional medicine in 1980 for holistic health to save my daughters’ life and my own. I know firsthand the importance of healing and the spirit of living. I am blessed for extra years by overcoming heart disease, kidney dysfunction, brain traumas, rib fractures, and 30 years of migraine headaches. I had three miscarriages, but God gave me three beautiful daughters. Why I chose shame and guilt for study? Shame and guilt reinforce each other to produce negative emotions such as anger, depression, addictions, etc. Shame guilt harms our physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual states. Lack of knowledge and their secrecy gives them power. Connect With Lois lois3hollis@gmail.com https://loishollis.com https://www.imgoodfilm.com/ https://truthissimple.com https://www.linkedin.com/in/loishollis/ https://www.facebook.com/lois3hollis https://www.facebook.com/LoisAHollis https://www.facebook.com/groups/1362596790752033 https://youtube.com/user/ShameGuiltSurvival https://www.instagram.com/shameguilt_ @shameguilt_ https://twitter.com/loishollis3 __________________________________ Lois spoke of DR. DAVID HAWKINS here His map of Consciousness

Lifestyle Entrepreneur, Dame ( yup! she was Knighted), and the Creator of Worthy Wands, Amanda is the definition of confidence and empowerment. It took her realizing with deep inner work, that she didn’t feel worthy or enough in her own life, despite building multiple 7 figure businesses. Addicted to the DO of life because that’s how she validated her worth, she had to learn to reprogram her unconscious beliefs about herself and learn to BE. In doing so she created Worthy Wands. A collection of science-backed jewelry designed to rewire the subconscious mind and reprogram your DNA. To date, seven lives have been saved from suicide and this brand is making waves around the world reminding women, men, and teens alike that they were born worthy and are more than enough. Amanda says "Remember the creator gave you worth at birth!"  Your mind is your home... it is where you live.  keep your mind clean so you feel safe.  Connect with Amanda Websites - worthywands.comamandaoreilly.ca IG - where I am most active @amanda.oreilly @worthywands And Congratulations to Amanda on Worthy wands collaboration with lululemon. The Worthy Wands brand is more than a line of jewelry. It's an attitude. It's a movement. It's a belief system. We're using cutting-edge neuroscience + epigenetics + NLP to re-program your brain to work in your favor, and anchor in the truth.

Lawrence “Larry” Sprung, CFP®, is the founder and wealth advisor at Mitlin Financial, Inc. Larry is also the host of the Mitlin Money Mindset™ a podcast that’s all about getting your mind right when it comes to all things money. One of Larry’s greatest passions is raising awareness for mental health. He spent over 12 years serving on the National Board of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP) and sits on its financial and investment committees.  As a fiduciary advisor, he and his team are dedicated to facilitating the customization of clients’ portfolios as they work toward reaching their financial objectives.   Larry and the Mitlin team prioritize clients first and consistently help clients make healthy financial decisions and offer a tremendous client experience that leverages today’s top tools and technology. Larry has appears on numerous podcasts and in the media speaking most recently on CNBC about money and parenting. He is also a member of the Experian Credit Chat panel and has presented to romance authors at numerous conferences, speaking about financial planning and business structure.    Larry has received several industry recognitions, including being named an Investopedia Top 10 Advisor in 2022 and a 2019 finalist for the Invest in Others For Community Service Award.   Outside the office, one of Larry’s greatest passions is raising awareness for mental health. He spent over 12 years serving on the National Board of the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP) and sits on its financial and investment committees.    With his wife, Denise, he has raised more than $1.7 million for the organization through the Keith Milano Memorial Fund. The fund was created at AFSP in memory of his brother-in-law.   Larry values his family tremendously and his desire to do right by his wife and two sons drives who he is in and out of the office.    You’ll likely find Larry at any number of ice hockey events on any given weekend or excited for his wife to plan their next Disney vacation.  Connect on Social:    Larry Sprung,  CFP® https://www.linkedin.com/in/lawrencesprung/ https://www.facebook.com/lawrencesprung/ https://twitter.com/Lawrence_Sprung https://www.instagram.com/larry_sprung/  

A simple chat from Elaine, a look at the stats in Canada and a few suggestions and observations from where she's at...  https://www.crisisservicescanada.ca/en/

Originally from Miami, FL 1st generation Cuban-AmericanMother born in Cuba Athlete and high school social butterfly Husband to GabyMarried at 19 yrs old Father to 2 teenagersBrianna 14 Caiden 13 Cecilia – Coming in Aug Joined Marines Corps in 2004 (18 yrs old)Deployed to East Asia Electrician on helicopters Joined Air Force in 2012Flight Engineer Deployed to Middle East in 14’ Flew over 18 missions to Afghanistan Spent over 12 years in Aeronautics Traveled to 23 countries Fluent in 3 languagesEnglish Spanish Sarcasm Suicide Attempt SurvivorIn 2001 my parents went through a bad time with one another. The arguments got bad and my mom finally threw my father out of the home that year. During that time I lost the ability to play basketball due to terrible grades. For me Basketball was my form of expression and my therapy. When it was taken away, I hit a real bad point. Obviously perspective is huge in life, as a 15 yr old it felt that everything was caving in and felt the only way out was not being here. I’m thankful the rifle never went off and believe that there was higher calling for me. Since then I’ve dedicated myself to sharing my raw truth with the hopes of empowering others to do the same. These stories have become so tainted and looked at as non-shareable content, but honestly.. It’s time to quit that. Our truths aka our story, shouldn’t be frowned upon. We all come from different paths with similar rest stops and that’s where connection really flourishes.

Michelle Cleveland Resilience & Resolve in the Face of the Unthinkable Suicide within the Family  NTC Lifeworks was born out of a desire to help others benefit from what Michelle learned about resilience through adversity. In honor of Nicholas and Thomas her sons whom she lost to suicide. Born in Prague, but raised in the USA I grew up in two vastly different cultures. I married my college sweetheart, an Army officer, and began moving all over the US as well as a tour in Germany. Living in so many places and having experienced the different cultures helps me connect with people from all over the globe. As a mother and advocate for children on the Autism spectrum I know and truly understand the various learning modes and the importance of engaging with learners in more than one way. With over 20 years of sales and business experience I have a thorough understanding of many facets of work and business life. I’ve worked in the corporate setting as well as home based and have first hand knowledge of the challenges and benefits of both. With my diverse life and work experiences I not only bring a wealth of knowledge, but also a different perspective to training. Website https://ntclifeworks.com/ Social  https://www.linkedin.com/in/michellecleveland/ https://www.instagram.com/the.balancebabe/

Frank King believes "You can make a difference. You can save a life. I can show you how." In 2016 Frank King began coaching potential TEDx Talkers, when a number of his speaker coaching clients approached him and asked if he would coach them on scoring a TEDx Talk opportunity. Since then, those half-dozen clients have all done their first TEDx Talk, one of those is scheduled to do her second early in 2019, and four of them are also in the second round of auditions for DukeTEDx! Frank King was a writer for the Tonight Show for 20 years, and he holds the record for the longest non-stop comedy club road trip ever. Beginning the day after Christmas in 1985, he and his wife (who must have the patience of Job) were on the road 2,629 nights in a row, comedy club to comedy club and cheap motel room to cheap motel room, with no home, just a PO Box and voice mail. Along the way he worked with Jerry Seinfeld, Jeff Foxworthy, Ron White, Adam Sandler, Dennis Miller, Ellen DeGeneres, Rosie O'Donnell, Kevin Nealon, Bill Engval, Dr. Ken Joeng, Rita Sirleaf and Kevin James among others. Since becoming a public speaker on Suicide Prevention in 2014, he’s done five TEDx Talks, has another one scheduled for February, and he’s in the second round of auditions for DukeTEDx. Frank Cares  858.405.5653 Sites http://www.TheMentalHealthComedian.com http://www.YourTEDxCoach.com  Social http://www.facebook.com/thementalhealthcomedian http://www.instagram.com/mentalhealthcomedian http://www.twitter.com/theMHcomedian https://www.youtube.com/thementalhealthcomedian https://www.linkedin.com/in/frankkingthemhcomedian Videos Born to Be Funny https://youtu.be/mugOzr6ItFk Mental With Benefits https://youtu.be/mCnsHSdAn48 A Matter of Laugh or Death https://youtu.be/IeMg6OFYfU0 Suicide, The Secret of My Success https://youtu.be/3D4m33DXtsI

After taking care of my brother as he wasted away and died from AIDs, the end of my 18-year marriage to my high school sweetheart in an ugly parting that made Divorce Court look civil, and years of wrong turns, things not working out, and being flat-out disappointed with life, I tried to kill myself in June of 2007, by swallowing over 90 pills, mostly brain drugs. Because I wasn’t found in time, the drugs went all the way through my system wreaking destruction. After a week in a coma, I woke up with a global, acquired brain injury (ABI), technically labeled encephalopathy, to a very different world. Initially, I was seriously mentally impaired and couldn’t retrieve words, remember the day, my sons’ ages, or that I’d gotten divorced. Physically, I could barely speak, couldn’t coordinate the acts of breathing and swallowing anymore, and had no fine motor skills. My ex-husband sued me for custody of our two sons, won, and promptly moved out of state with them. And I thought things were bad before? Alone, for the first time in my life, I had no one to put my limited energy into but myself. Getting downright pissed off, I told myself, “If I have to live, I’m NOT living like this!” Over the first year, I naturally healed somewhat and, in the following years, the more I recovered, the more I learned. The more I learned, the more I recovered. Through years of daily work and such practices as neurofeedback, Brain State Technologies’ brainwave optimization, hyperbaric oxygen therapy, acupuncture, voice therapy, music therapy, cranial-sacral massage, hypercapnia, visualization, meditation, cross-lateral movement, yoga, cardiovascular exercise, cognitive behavioral therapy, and more, I made a remarkable recovery. Although I still talk funny and have some slight manual dexterity issues, I’m better than ever, even with these. The brain injury forced me to make radical changes in my lifestyle and mindset that I’d needed to make long before. Better late than never! Because the underlying belief systems and the perceptual foundation upon which I’d built my reality withered away along with brain cells, I got to start with a clean slate, so to speak. By consciously working with and altering my thoughts, behaviors, and emotions, I transformed my world which in turn, changed my physical brain and its default mode of operation. Today, I live a brain-healthy lifestyle incorporating mental health practices daily to maintain the balance and happiness I’ve found. Our brains are neuroplastic, meaning that their structure and function are literally, physically shaped by that which we do repeatedly in our lives – behaviors, emotions, and even thoughts. This works both for you and against you. We have much more power to recover from a brain injury, improve our brain’s functioning, recover from depression, and create our own happiness and reality with the gray matter between our ears than ever thought possible. Neuroplasticity is the superpower we all are born with and possess until the day we die. On my blog and website, I share information about the tools I used to heal myself and my life physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually and related topics to inspire and encourage you to take control of and change your brain and life for the better. Promise! I live in Greensboro, North Carolina with my five cats (sometimes more). There you can find me reading, writing, gardening, and doing hot yoga.    I have written an intimate, entertaining memoir,  Suicide, and Serotonin,  in which I tell all the dirty details of how I got to a place in life where I wanted to die and how I recovered spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically.  FACEBOOK    TWITTER    PINTEREST    LINKEDIN

Herbie Mack is a multi-time suicide survivor, which led him to become a suicide prevention speaker. Herbie is also a mental health first aider, QPR gateKeeper, and the Just Believe Podcast host. The Just Believe Podcast gives insight into how people overcome their mental health challenges, seek professional help & provide alternative ways to tackle anxiety and depression.   Social Media Links   Instagram @hbmack Twitter @Hbmack Facebook Herbie Mack Suicide Prevention Speaker